I think you’ve hit the nail on the head. Almost all of the “successful” people I’ve met over the years do this. Whether they be porn stars, tech gurus, YouTubers, or drug dealers, they have two personalities, the totally unfiltered public persona that instantly draws people to them in a room of strangers, then later in the night, they suddenly become the broken, real person, under the skin, that constantly fears being judged, worried what everyone else thinks about them. I’ve rarely met a successful person without the whole two personas thing going on somewhere in their psyche.