OP, some portable, ready-to-eat advice for you: ditch the loser friends who don't want to take risks, explain your decision to your father and ask for support, and find a job again if money is an issue.
You're 20. When I was 20 I hadn't worked a full-time job yet; since then I've been hired at a place where it didn't work out, worked my ass off, landed a dream job, and now I'm learning how to code. Life is long, and you and I have only lived a piece of it.
It hasn't. You're alive, you have your family, and there's air in your lungs. Take steps to fix this situation.
Oh, and stop being so negative. Life's hard enough already when you're NOT giving yourself a hard time.
You're 20. When I was 20 I hadn't worked a full-time job yet; since then I've been hired at a place where it didn't work out, worked my ass off, landed a dream job, and now I'm learning how to code. Life is long, and you and I have only lived a piece of it.
It hasn't. You're alive, you have your family, and there's air in your lungs. Take steps to fix this situation.
Oh, and stop being so negative. Life's hard enough already when you're NOT giving yourself a hard time.