Mental health professionals saved my life. Do you have any experience with professional help? Are you comfortable repeating what you said here, but with a counselor / psychologist?
Maybe feel a little bit of pride, because you are emotionally aware of dangers of causing harm to yourself and or others, and care enough to ask for help.
Help to share and solve your emotional state, is exactly what you need to ask for, so I feel glad you asked HN as a comfortable place to start.
Psychotechnological (r)evolution, showing real human potential and portends.
One vote has more meaning.
Sharing raw feelings is a good sign, and language evolving, to really represent our system and society of mind and machinery, of emotionally diverse voting interest indication, with little technical difficulty.
People can harm your life. Abuse runs wild off-grid, and wherever technology walls and kills us evilly, equally human beings do something suffering by having no tools to fight back.
Tech is anti-harm and or technodeadly gun. Lack / control in context means fighting to give programming our lives more than a technical meaning.
If we want psychotechnological tools bridging heart and online, we need to find time to talk more than power and paranoia, and add more mentally healthy methods to our programming commits.
Commitments to giving technology a meaning as a lifeline, begins with supporting deeper programming, deprogramming technicality and nuance left out by profit.
Deprogramming psychotechnological tools sciencing ideas of power for people who hurt, is real.
A major technical problem, life's reality problem..
Tooling real life guns v. life aware tools, together, finds us interconnecting unit-tests with reality-tests with reality-cared..
Psychotechnological tools can care to remember and understand, as well as dominate and aggress, so is it maybe about balancing complex emotions - with complex problems - with complex technical gears?
Wearing Glass can be caring as well as wearing Glass can be baring.
So real as I fear technology, I fear people without technical senses, so I feel we need equally care.
Maybe technology can be more sensitive .. so maybe people can be more sensitive?
Repeating reality is (is lost..) that programming has a real life cost equally important to every type of pain. Whether counting greater, technical, systemic, organizational and or proprietary pains, sometimes our lives are counted by asking people to pay with pain.
Framed negative and or positive, equally real, paying programming and paying with programming et al, still has real life opportunity cost and real life opportunity lost.
Inkscape interface does most everything I need, except I miss Photoshop's 'Layer Effects' workflow, which makes designing and organizing filters less messy.
I really couldn't wait for Github to develop Gist more features than a VCS notepad.